This is the question asked of our GBE 2 writing group for week #56. If I had my life to live over...what would I do? To answer this truthfully requires much soul-searching and real self-examination. It also takes the strength to be completely honest with yourself.
My first inclination is to say, "Oh, I wouldn't change a thing!"; and for the most part, that is true, although I do believe we all have some aspects of our life we would do differently. But as for major choices and events, I an quite sure I wouldn't change anything.
We all have both good and bad in our lives. Some of it by our own choices, some beyond our control. If you read my last blog post, you know I didn't have the type of high school experience I would have chosen. Would I change that? No. If things had been different in high school, I wouldn't have been so anxious to leave Milltown that I moved in with my sister in Kentucky the day after graduation. If I hadn't moved to Kentucky, I wouldn't have met Kenneth and married the love of my life. Life is a series of events and it takes us experiencing the good with the bad in order to make us into the person we are today. Sometimes what we think is the end of the world is just a detour in the road that will lead us to where we are suppose to be. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason. We may never understand the reasons, and sometimes those reasons may seem like more than we can bear, but I do believe these times of adversity are a necessary part of life.
If I said there wasn't anything I would change I would be lying. There are choices that wouldn't have ultimately changed the course of my life that I would do differently. I would have saved more money, spent more time with my mother in later years, took better care of myself, etc., etc.. These are not regrets, merely observations. Life is too short to live with regrets. I believe in making the best choice I can at the time and moving on from there.
Because of my choices and guidance from Divine Intervention, I have had a wonderful life. The farm was a great place to learn how to be a wife and mother and to raise an amazing son whom I am very proud of. I have no desire to "do-over" my life. Through the many ups and downs I have become a stronger and better person. I am content with my life, and really, what more could you ask for than that?
Until next time...that's my view.